He's Gone

We all know the drill

he gets locked up and she breaks loose

Life's lessons taught so real

she learned too many, she just called it truce

10 years she loved him strong

10 years her love he denied

She fought with fist and will alone

He struck her down far too many times

His support she longed to be

his perfection is what she aspired

To gaze and see her true beauty

is all she asked for him to provide

Other women he always kept

yet she laid  with him no less

Self doubt and hurt and it was set

the pain pierced deep inside her chest

Raising a child that's not her own

because of the love for him that she attained

A love so unconditional and strong

he never wanted it- that caused her pain

So much abuse and she sat still

waiting as the moments passed by

Her soul almost crushed- no time to heal

for a healing the pain was sure to deny

She always blamed herself for staying

and watches her kids as they grew steady

Loving them- for better days praying

but leaving was the only remedy-this she knew

But breaking free seemed so impossible

letting go was much too hard

The thought of what was ohh so sensible

cut like the glass of broken shards

She felt destroyed, unloved, not needed

fought a battle of non-sense in claim

Through it all she kept her dreams

and refused to bow in shame

So when he left alone she lay

in the bed where they made love

Thinking o the words he'd say

so little of them filled with love

She cried so long and felt so lost

unaware of what to do

He was her life the one she sought

somehow someway he was her glue

but she woke up day by day

and went about her every task

Back down in the bed she'd lay

as she did along so many times in the past

She pictured life when he's return

fantasized that it would all change

"Damn girl no lesson learned?"

spoke that voice that sounded so strange

"This is your life and you have so much to give

here you are expecting that what was never true

How many days of hurt and years of pain did you live?

are you seriously debating if he'd be good to you?

You gave it all you had and there isn't much left

It is time that you looked out for yourself"

She thought-but how selfish a request

to put him up upon a shelf

Her argument made her laugh

cause she gave him 10 years to love her back

Even if he does improve and show her love just as she asked

could she claim to release the past, not keeping track?

She got up from the bed and moved to the mirror

 she wiped her tears and pushed her hair aside

She spoke the words aloud and let them flow just like a river

"No more of the hurt consider how much he lied

you have to are for you or no one else will ever no how.

Its time to move on- do what you have to do

you can seek what happiness is to you now."

With that she didn't get any sleep

at all that entire night

Pillow soaked eyes with streaks

the morning came cold and bright

So she let him while he was gone

you pass judgement if you'd like

But inside she knows she's wrong

she knows next time she will do it right.............